New Year's Goals

I like to have my life planned out, but that has gotten a little hard to do recently. Not only have the last few months been filled with some crazy adventures, but I'm having a hard time getting over the lack of a tracking number on the shipment of these little ones. There needs to be a timer strapped to this belly of mine. If it weren't for this rather obnoxious lack of seemingly simple and feasible tools, I could have my life all planned out! As it is, I'm dividing my life into two sections: the calm before the storm and...the rest of my life.

Here is one goal from each of my four goal categories: physical, spiritual, family, and intellectual. They are in no particular order.

My body, it's my body:
I have no idea how big I'll be by the time these kiddos come and I have no idea how hard it is to lose pregnancy weight, but by the end of the year, I want to weigh less than I did before I got pregnant. I know that sounds like a lofty goal, but I've lost a lot of muscle and haven't gained that much weight at 23 weeks. If they come in the next two months, I'm guessing I'll have gained about 15 pounds total. That includes the 7 I've gained so far and an additional pound a week. Oh but wait...I'm having twins. So would that be more like two pounds a week? Ahh I don't know! Anyway, I think 20+ pounds shouldn't be too hard to lose. Also, if we're lucky, we'll make it another 3 months and I'll get to feel that much better after losing all that weight! I want to do this by the beginning of August.

Read scriptures every day on my own:
Ryan and I have been doing a much better job reading scriptures together every night but consequentially, my own scripture reading suffers. I find myself rationalizing that I've already read with Ryan or I'll read on my own later. I know it's important to spend time alone with the scriptures every day so this needs to be more of a priority. I need to establish this before the babies come and my life gets crazy. My goal is going to be small (10 minutes a day) but, like so many things in the gospel, the important thing is consistency.

Breastfeeding:

I'm a little anxious about breastfeeding two potentially premature babies. I know it will take a huge amount of time and patience, especially at the beginning, and I worry I'll just want to give up even though it's the best thing for them. I've read some horror stories and frankly, the prospect of getting so little sleep for months on end is just not that enticing. So that being said, I know it's POSSIBLE to breastfeed twins, but I just hope it's possible for me and that they catch on quickly. I want to breastfeed for at least six months and I'll reevaluate at that point. Speaking of breastfeeding, does anyone have recommendations for buying or renting a pump? I want to be able to make sure my supply stays up, especially at the beginning, and I'd like to not be bound to the house like I have been, by shoving some of this huge responsibility off onto Ryan...like he's not already busy enough! So any thoughts from someone with a little more experience than me? 

Reading:
I want to read a book a week for every week I'm on bed rest. This isn't much of a goal because I'm doing it anyway but I want to keep it up. I've read at least 6 in the past month and I liked five of the six. I also want to read at least 5 parenting books by the end of this year.